To Be your first born girl
I should most definitely mean the world
To be your first born child
You should be there for longer than just a while
To be the one who gave you the title “mom”
It should be apparent as a “parent”
That when I need you when I ask
You don’t push me off
and drift away so fast.
I need you forever
No matter what we go through
Our relationship should only get better.
Don’t tell me about my siblings
And how they felt, and what you did
Must have slipped your mind
That I basically was second to raising those kids.
Now I need you here for me
But you’re leaving
Using every excuse
While bringing up old shit from 2003.
But it’s whatever
… I guess
Like you said, “I’ll get over it”
Yea, you got better things to do
Trying to give me money
To brush off our issues
They’re not going nowhere
Neither am I
I just hope you understand
How much I’m hurt
How much I’ve cried
Before you reach
Thee end of your time.
What do you say to her when she’s crying at night
Hoping and wishing for a better life Not even a rich full life just one where she can be in her mother’s presence every night
Wondering why her mom gave her away to this place where she’s unable to escape and have to suffer from another not her mother whom she’ll rather here it from instead of hearing it from a person telling her she belongs in the slum ain’t gonna be nothin but what her mother is and collect her sins whole her mother no longer listens.
She now only says why you trying to start an argument don’t want to deal with this shit. Thirteen praying for both parents to come back and hold her close or at least make an attempt to never let her go, but they don’t.
She cries at night
She yells and scream
Asking God for a plea
Just bring them back to me
Why must you cause suffering
What did I do
Keep the materialistic things,
All I want is
The one who gave birth.
The one who suppose to nurture.
Yet you leave me here to live your life for the next five years missing out on mine as I sit here and cry. Wondering why? What did I do? Why do you no longer want us two?