Line in Life

I pray next life time

That you’ll forever be mine

Not worrying about who & who hitting your line

That we’ll forever be more than fine

I hope that you’ll love me more than you do now

I ask that you will, for eternity 

Hold me down 

That you’ll never look at anyone the same

That I’ll be your peace and your sane 

I want to keep you forever with me

Hold me so close 

Very tightly

As we all know I’m very clingy 

Forever I’ll cherish you longer than eternity

I love you more than the winners love their money on jeopardy 

Come home to me 

Never let me go

Tell me how to love you

My actions will show

My heart will forever be in your possession

Come lay down

I’ll show you more than affection

Maybe I was wrong about you at first

My heart feels different 

Like it’s going to burst 

I just want to love you

Forever you’ll be mine 

I want you to be

My lifeline

DB 2/14

It’s your birthday today

You probably won’t even read this

Because 

According to you 

My actions are effortless

So no I won’t be calling you

I know it’s pretty rude

I’m just showing you

That I can do what you do

free flow 2

now tell me about your dreams

and where you’ll like to be

or are you settled where you’re currently now

in a government controlled town

what gets you wide up

to wake up each day

is it the family

or are they in your way

what would you have done different

than what you do now

when you open your eyes

do you understand the bow

the bow to other morals

bow to other states

bow to these mothefuckers fucking up your day

bow to who’s in front of you

bow to their shows

bow to the writers who feed you daily news

bow to me

I can truly see

that you my friend

are avoiding reality

the reality

of not just knowing

but living your dreams

where you bow to no one

because now they call you

the queen

the king

the royalty

What Win?

Am I living my dreams

Or am I only awaking each day to scream

Gotta wake up to wash up

To accomplish someone else’s dream

Constantly praying to God

To help me get through this job

To keep me on the right path

So that I don’t have to go out and rob

Why can’t I just wake up rich?

I gotta actually work for that shit?

Don’t wanna put my hand out

But my pockets are in a drought

It’s nothing that rain can do

But bring many sad news

About this person and person

Getting in accidents too

Trynna turn my frown

Upside down

But all I can think about is being wealthy in the future

And bypassing the now!

What thee fuck am I to do?

When the bills are due?

Forget this thing called life,

Cut!

Now it’s your cue!

Couldn’t Win The Day

Woke up an hour late

Just to try to start my day

To help the man succeed his plan

While I daydream about my own visions

Tried to start my car, my car wouldn’t work

Tried to catch a ride, no available Uber’s

Finally made it to work, files packed up high

Then they expected me to finish it by noon time

Went to buy lunch, card got declined

Thought I had three more hours left,

But then they hit me with the mandatory overtime

Trying to make it home

No one answers their phone

After an hour wait

I’m finally on my way

Get to the door

Note reads

After this month tenant, there’ll be no more “please”

Either find a new place, or pay me my money

 

Finally got inside

To my surprise. . .

“Dear Bae,

Hope you had a great day!

These years have been pretty amazing.

Maybe not great or superb

In the end, I’m kicking you to the curb.

No it’s not you! It’s definitely me.

I have yet to figure out my true identity.

With all the love in the world

I can’t just share it with only one girl.

I know you’ll understand

You always do

Had to sell all our things to make way for the new.”

I’m laying on the floor

How could this be?

Why this, why that, why me?

 

 

 

 

Rest of Them

He fears that I’ll leave again

(I might)

I feared that his love wasn’t everlasting

(Seemed to only last for the night)

His soul tried to touch mine

(His actions proved he was a waste of time)

I ran instead of trying to work things out

(He failed to acknowledge my exit was filled with doubt)

Now I want to come back and make things work

(Why not just give it a shot?)

He still fears that I’ll leave again

(If his words doesn’t match his verbs, I will)

Now I’m sitting here writing my love for him

Still doubt in my mind that I want to share my world with him

I try to grasp why I still want to be with him

Adding him to the list:”Rest of Them”

Sin

Come undo my sins

 

 

 
Remove all the pain within

 

 

 

 

New chapter begins

 

 

 

Flowfree 1

Toxic

Rocket

My heart

Needs to stop it

I’m losing all sight

From the current night

Yelling at me

Won’t make things right

Blind to your words

Come show me some verbs

Walking away won’t cure a thing

Playing like a harp,

My nerves.

Moap

What do you say to her when she’s crying at night

Hoping and wishing for a better life Not even a rich full life just one where she can be in her mother’s presence every night

Wondering why her mom gave her away to this place where she’s unable to escape and have to suffer from another not her mother whom she’ll rather here it from instead of hearing it from a person telling her she belongs in the slum ain’t gonna be nothin but what her mother is and collect her sins whole her mother no longer listens.

She now only says why you trying to start an argument don’t want to deal with this shit. Thirteen praying for both parents to come back and hold her close or at least make an attempt to never let her go, but they don’t. 

They won’t. 

She cries at night

She yells and scream

Asking God for a plea

Just bring them back to me

Why must you cause suffering 

What did I do 

Keep the materialistic things,

All I want is 

You! 

The one who gave birth.

The one who suppose to nurture. 

Yet you leave me here to live your life for the next five years missing out on mine as I sit here and cry. Wondering why? What did I do? Why do you no longer want us two? 

She’s through. 

Beaste

My heart cries for you day and night wishing I could just lay right next to you 

Building dreams that you’ll say we shall do

But I just wait

Wait for you to actually do as you say

Instead of seeing you read my text at this time

But yet wait for a response until the next day 

Or week

Or months

Then a semi sarcastic response I provide

When you’re actually all that I want 

For

A

Lifetime

Why won’t you just open your eyes

Understand that I want you to be mines

And nobody else’s.

I sit here wondering why I can’t accept nobody else the way I have accepted you 

I just sit and ponder and cry about all the pain and happiness you put me through 

As I sit on this street to understand if this is actually my last note to you 

My love

My heart

The only one I could actually see myself being with from the start. 

From a simple hello 

As I looked through the bread hoping that you’ll leave me alone.

But you didn’t,

You kept speaking and eventually got the digits.

As I thought I should dodge you

I didn’t.

Now my heart wishes that it did

As I sit here and say SHIT, 

HE DID IT! 

Did all that people thought they could do 

Capturing my heart

Have them on my mind nonstop as you do.

They don’t

They won’t 

They can’t

You will and always be the MAN

I’ll always hate him, but I love him.