It’s your birthday. . .
Time has replaced me as your second child.
It’ll be in your life longer than I’ll ever be.
No need to reconcile.
…….
I’m content with that.
Bottle Service
To Be your first born girl
I should most definitely mean the world
To be your first born child
You should be there for longer than just a while
To be the one who gave you the title “mom”
It should be apparent as a “parent”
That when I need you when I ask
You don’t push me off
and drift away so fast.
I need you forever
No matter what we go through
Our relationship should only get better.
Don’t tell me about my siblings
And how they felt, and what you did
Must have slipped your mind
That I basically was second to raising those kids.
Now I need you here for me
But you’re leaving
Using every excuse
While bringing up old shit from 2003.
But it’s whatever
… I guess
Like you said, “I’ll get over it”
Yea, you got better things to do
Trying to give me money
To brush off our issues
They’re not going nowhere
Neither am I
I just hope you understand
How much I’m hurt
How much I’ve cried
Before you reach
Thee end of your time.
Thrill
I guess I knew I never loved you
I just enjoyed the way you made me feel
The excitement of being secretive
The attraction of the thrill!
Now I look at you
With disappoint in my eyes
How did I allow myself
To fall for your lies
They were written all over you
From the time that we met
All those things said about the past
Were just a coverup for the
Need to fill the remainder of the voids that
You currently have.
I guess I never really loved you,
But I did enjoy the way you made me feel.
Next time you think about entering my life,
Make sure it’s for real.
Haiku 3
It really does hurt
It is not what I deserve
I’m at lost for words.
FF #3
We lose our sleep
With the same song on repeat
Of how we’re going to leave so and so alone
They will not defeat
Then we begin to think
What if I’ll forever be lonely
In these dangerous streets
Where love is just a myth
To where we become numb to the truth of what it is
Ain’t this some shit
We begin to say
I was just laying next to you the other day
Now I see you with a different person everyday
But still hit me up when they go a different way
As if I’m suppose accept your actions
I’m just minding my business
While you’re out relaxing
With someone who you’re gonna tell me is just a friend
Or better yet, my favorite lie
“That’s just my cousin”
As if I didn’t just see you tongue her down
But yet want to still keep me around
That’s nasty
I don’t like other people germs
Show me you love me and want me through your actions
You can keep your words.
If They Knew
They all want something
Just to leave you with nothing
Crying looking for approval
When they fail to even know
The things you like
What keeps you up at night
If they only knew,
How to treat you right.
Them
They took the leaf
From under my feet
Now all I feel is
Defeat
But do I defeat
Or do I defend
How they treat the ones that it truly affects
In the end
Now I’m no superhero
By any means
But to see the look on their faces
Can turn me green
Like the big guy with the muscles
We call him the Hulk
I want to tear shit down
But my heart won’t let me walk
There gotta be another way
I just know it does
To help the youth beat the system
And rise above.
